A Little Bird Told Me..,

Monday, December 13, 2010

Ho Ho Ho...


Well.. it's been nearly a month since I have blogged anything... but that, of course, doesn't mean I haven't had anything to say : P

I need to mention that I am having some technical issues with blogspot, so the colors and sizes haven't been all that uniform... siiigh

Anyway, it's that time again. Nearly. Christmas. The time when wonder and the "magic" of the season get a grip of your heart and make your insides warm and fuzzy? (BEFORE the cocktail?) lol... parties, and fun-filled preparations???

That time when good cheer reigns, and people are filled with joy, and hope?

Hmmm...that's what I thought.

It's been a few years like that for me, too... in fact. in 2008, I almost wished Christmas would jump off a cliff.. no, not literally. I love the Lord too much for that, but I wasn't in any position to celebrate. Mom had just died and my world was turned upside down.

In fact, for so many, it seems to get so much worse at the holidays. More people commit suicide and end up in treatment around Christmas...I see everyone rushing around, but no one getting anywhere in a hurry... traffic is in a sluggish, derailed, hostile mess as December 25th approaches. I won't even address the gifts that you wish you had or hadn't gotten, and wish you had given, or hadn't... : ) "I KNEW Aunt Eloise already had a set of matching golf clubs in neon pink!"

It started off simple. One unwed mother with a gracious husband. and the Child? He was born in a feeding trough. a few animals and shepards. blissfully quiet... I bet there weren't any sales or light displays, either no tacky silver trees with plastic ornaments (ugh)...or fruitcake... thank God.
And, rather unfortunately, probably no eggnog flavored lattes... : )

May I point out one very significant detail? At a time when the last thing so many lonely people want to do is celebrate?

That Gift, the Saviour of the World, is still waiting for us to come and spend time with Him. Sans the mayhem, or even in the midst of it :>

This year, I wish you peace!






Thursday, November 18, 2010

An end of an era!

Greetings! It's Thursday night, and I can't sleep, soooo here I am, bothering YOU! lol

What's on your mind, you ask? Well, funny you should ask. I am thinking about seasons- and change. This past week, a group that I have attended for the past eight weeks drew to a close.

What awesome times they were! We had the best hosts! They fed us, loved us, learned with us, and fed us... : ) seeing a pattern??? lol

Al D., or "Doc Bean", is pictured here meticulously prepping up vanilla bean seeds for his famous, or rather ALMOST famous Al Bucks coffee.. it's going to catch on... I know it! <3>

Having met and gotten close to some cool new friends, and much as I am saddened to think that I won't be spending Monday nights with them any more - I know that there will be another adventure waiting for me around the corner. Just as awesome as this one has been...

It's autumn - fall.. winter is right around the corner. The next season is looming close by. (entirely TOO close in my almost humble opinion.. : )
Granted, change doesn't come all that easy for me. I have to really work at my attitude regarding changes in my life.

So... my options: I can moan, groan, complain and caterwaul that I have to move on, OR I can anticipate more fun and more adventure... but it is going to have to be some really cool stuff to outdo the times with "Doc" and his most wonderful wife, Heather! <3

So, while change isn't exactly easy, it IS after all New England... and if you don't like the weather, then just wait a minute!




Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Made for more

Hello again!

It's Tuesday, but feels like Monday. I was away in New Bedford, Sunday celebrating a 40th (c'mon, do we really celebrate getting older??? ) birthday... May your day rock, Kris! <3>

Anyway, this weekend seemed to have a theme running through it. Like a finely woven tapestry.

Everywhere I turned there was some great (what we in churchland call) fellowship. I have found I can't live without it. When I am with my God family, we have a bond that we can't even explain, really. It's that wonderful spiritual connection that keeps us close.

When I am with my physical family, we have other bonds, i.e. the bonds of experience that keep us close. We laugh with and at each other... : P we cry with and for each other. We get aggravated as heck at each other. And somehow, hopefully, get past it. : )

When I was out in the bars playing music every other thing, I had a bond with the people that I played with. That was family. We made great (usually) music together, and we almost always had deep friendships with each other. Common cause was another great factor.

We so crave belonging, don't we? We were made to belong. Especially to the one that made us... : D

So what's the point of all this reflecting and rambling? Go out there and get threaded in!!! It's good for you!!!

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Ahhhhh... I LOVE this season!

Ah the amazing crisp cool autumn air! It almost begs to be breathed with gusto! I get energized in the fall. All the sluggishness of summer "falls off" : P, and I am renewed with vigor!

Pumpkin anything is on the menu, and the aroma of cider meanders through the kitchen as I create masterpieces again.

Why I fall for fall: The air is comfortable, and rarely humid - even in New England.. he he he ... You can cook and "not bake!" The flies magically disappear! That alone is reason to celebrate!

With a new season are new adventures. When you purpose to find something new and exciting, it lightens your heart, and you dwell with an air of expectancy. As soon as I get through Halloween, which I don't celebrate anymore, I know that Christmas is coming soon. While I tolerate winter, I adore Christmas! Talk about expectancy! But I will get to that later.

Thanksgiving is another season favorite for me. I am discovering thankfulness. Let me tell you that if your heart is thankful, there isn't a lot of room for other junk to settle there. You DO have to be intentional about it, though.

I had a lesson from a dear friend a few years back- when she first got "Super Connected" to her Heavenly Father, she began to pray constantly, cultivating a thankful heart. It has carried her through some grueling storms, and what a life raft. It has been inspirational to me, especially in learning to stop complaining.

Then there are the fairs, apples, and Roger's Orchards. GREAT TIMES! Nuff said.

Fall, the A/C gets a break, and for a woman that runs like a furnace, all I have to say is one word.......... RELIEF!!!!!

So as you see, it really IS the best season. What is your favorite season, and why?

Have a great day, and remember to respond in kindness today... you never know what kind of impact that you might have on a hurting and lost world...


PEAS out!!! <3>



Saturday, October 23, 2010

Some Assembly Required


Hello again! What are you up to tonight? It's Saturday night after all, and most people are either "old" and in bed, cuz that is what old people do, : P, or they are off cavorting because soon they will be old, and not ready for bed. The other possibilities I don't want to even delve into, it is after all a "G" rated blog. : )

So, tonight, I am writing, and reflecting. In case you are wondering what the scary looking pic is, I have been working all week at a great job. I mean, it is! Really. For me, it's amazing! Too bad it's just a temporary position...

Great pay... a good workout- hey it takes me fifteen minutes to walk from the car to my desk!... two in the office- no women, just me and an engineer with social skills. Best part? NO PHONES!!! Can't get any better than that! The pic is a blueprint of some lock or door related product. I have been helping this company get their UL books in compliance. File auditing. Pouring through book after book with a lot of really old illustrations and blueprints. Hyper-linking. Detailed stuff...

Which brings me to the point. I eventually DO get to the point................. if you are not feint at heart. : ) Looking at the mass of directions in the blueprint, I started contemplating. (there's a surprise!)

The pic... isn't that how life is? We don't come with schematics, directions, or even an understanding of a lot of things. Many things are just plain unknowable. Messy? We are ever so messy, and generally have way too many malfunctions. If only we came with an owners manual! But we do!

There is definitely some assembly work required with us, isn't there? Thank God that we aren't subject to recalls simply because we make a mess out of things!

Leave a message if you like, I love hearing comments! Have an amazing week and don't forget to check out the 'Owner's Manual' today! The warranty is unlimited! <3>

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Cliff Hangers and Waiting


Happy Wednesday! It's funny... I get inspired to write in the strangest ways.. For those of you that know me, I know what you are thinking... keyword=strange.... lol...

Seriously, though, I was contemplating. I do that from time to time... keeps my mind guessing : P.

I love a good love story! A great plot, interesting and believable characters, and a little adventure or intrigue... Heat well, stir, and sip!

Keeping that thought in mind, what happens as your follow the story-besides the interruptions??? lol... well - as the plot unfolds, you follow and you wait... you wait to see how things are going to play out - unless you are one of the naughty ones that reads the end first - : P.

Wait... more's coming. Things are going to happen! Be patient (my personal favorite... ok... not! lol) If you sit tight, you will see change! Or the new catch phrase - "wait for it!" *eyeroll* NOT my favorite word... in my opinion, it's a four letter word. : P

Kind of like our lives. We spend sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much time waiting................................................... point made

When I record I wait endlessly for set up and drum adjustments. Thank God for laptops, iphones, and journals. Waiting AND being quiet?!?!?= interminable.

When I cook, I have to wait for the finished product. Who wants an apple pie that's half baked? Blech!

We wait for the weekend... the week can drone on and on, and the beloved FRIDAY hits like a champagne bottle on the side of a ship!

When I pray, I wait for an answer. Poor Daniel. In the Bible, his answer was delayed for three weeks due to spiritual "red tape" - aka - the old enemy of our souls mucking around and making trouble.

Someone precious to many of our hearts is waiting for a new lung, and discovering the infinite depths of the mercy of God. <3>

We wait in traffic. CT, FYI, does NOT wait well on the roads. Enough said.

We wait for results... tests, jobs, spouses, children, being reunited with those that you love <3>

We as believers wait and wait for our ticket to be validated when we enter Heaven's Gates! That ride is totally WORTH THE WAIT! ***see Owner for details, certain restrictions apply.. : D

So, here's the kicker: we are also waiting for Him to come back.. Here... really... He said so.. he also mentioned that we won't know when.

That is really the ultimate cliffhanger - don't you agree? and when He does, it will be worth the wait. Make sure you have your ticket!



Thanks to themorningsundotblogspotdotcom for the pic










Sunday, October 10, 2010

Getting Older.... groan!


Ok... so the last thing I want to do is turn this blog into a gripe session. You've seen those senior citizens that sit and play bridge, or whatever it is that they play, circled around the card table, griping about aches and pains, groaning about high medicine costs, and constant doctor visits.... in between jabber-jawing about their children being too busy for them and what they can and can't eat anymore... oh, and the operations....ugh...

You SWEAR up and down that you are NEVER NEVER NEVER going to turn into one of "those"... constantly whining about all that you can't do anymore... crotchedy and miserable!

I was feeling that a little today at my neices' wedding. She had a lovely wedding, simple, and without the usual trappings that produce ten extra restroom visits for me: throwing the garter, assembling all the lovely single women (in my case - old maid) and the like.

I was sore as heck and feeling old... tempted to gripe about the accumulating list of body frustrations.

While it was really nice to see family - especially the ones that I don't see all that often, it was also a bittersweet time for me, too. For a myriad of reasons.

First and foremost, because I was engaged once, and that didn't pan out too well. I am not really into birkas as appearal - not for me. : (

Secondly, I never guessed that I would be sooooo "terminally single" at this age. You see, by a world standard, I don't have much of anything, and I am NOT AT ALL a success. If money is the gauge, I am below empty.

Thirdly, the man that I fell sooo much in love with decided that he would rather let fear rule his heart than risk love. Real gusty risk it all love.

Sooooo... as I sat there, today, missing my mom terribly- and knowing that she would be pleased as punch to share the day with Jenny, and us - it just hit me.

I watched nearly everyone there with their counterpart, and felt slightly out of place. You know that there are whispers. "You know, if she'd take off a couple of pounds, she might well be pretty." She's aging pretty well, not too many wrinkles, but she never really made something of herself." or my personal favorite: "She'd probably make a decent wife, but at THAT AGE, her chances are not too good."

If I base my life on that system, I am doomed! Thankfully, I understand that it's not my marital status, my financial status, or even my looks that determine my worth. Thank God...

It's not the car I drive, or the job I (don't) have. It's not the political views that I hold, or the amount of money that I make.

It's not my ability to pound the heck out of a bass guitar, or make a lucious batch of hot fudge!

Nor is it my ability to make others laugh. (I really love to inspire a 'holding your gut', belly laugh!) believe it or not, it's not even my heart to help the poor.

It's the fact that I am a child of the King, the Creator of all that is! He picked me before the world began and said. "Oh, yeah, I AM going to make a real piece of work!" lol...

He decided that I was going to have a lot of opportunities to shine His light into this sometimes pretty horrible dark world, and have the most fabulous relationship with Him.

So, while everyone around me is struggling with the growing older pains, I am winding down - getting excited about the homecoming... that portal, door, entrypoint, eternal dwelling, where there are no tears, fears, or cares... the streets really ARE paved with gold!

When I will rest in the Presence of One Who keeps always keeps me in His sight. Who guides my steps and sends angels to protect me. He can even answer prayers that don't even make my lips!

So, rather than growing old, I am growing closer... <3>

Monday, September 27, 2010

I LOVE surprises!!!

Good evening, all! Hope today finds you well- it's raining here, and if here is like there, you too are getting wet... : P

There are a few things on my heart today... my family... there are many that are sick, and my heart aches for them, so I am praying. with no time to donate, and the funds below low, it's the best thing I can do. Of course, if the finds weren't running for cover, and I had plenty of time, it would STILL be the best thing I could do. <3>

So this weekend I played bass with some old friends, some newer ones, and met a few more! It was a wonderful weekend, and it's awful to see such a fun time end.

We led worship for Freedom Fellowship, and had a special speaker come and preach. For those of you that are allergic to church, I understand, really I do.... been there myself.. but please indulge me for this post, as I have had such wonderful answers to prayer that barely met my lips...

First of all, it's been a dry season.. dry enough that I had to reorder chapstick. : P Money has been sooo tight, and I have had to sell some things to try and alleviate the rent payments. For those of you not familiar with courier work, I need to explain something... you have to keep a hefty portion of what you make for gas, tolls, parking and the like every week.. it's a given.. you make out well on double runs, keeping your speed down, and not running the AC.. : P

You get the picture. Last night at the service we asked the Lord for blessings - surprise ones, too.. the unexpected. Since no request is far fetched for the Lord, and we love and believe Him to take care of us, He does.. and He has suuuuch a creative streak... : D

I had to sell my amp, UUUGGGGHHHHH!!!! and it was a Hartke 350 head and Ampeg 15 in speaker cab... (for those that don't speak musician, - it was a decently powerful rig :-D ) sooooo... I had to borrow one to play with this weekend - it was a nice one.. with WHEELS even!!! lol... "the supplier" was really really gracious, and offered to let me "hold onto it" for a while.. babysit it so that I can have one to use and not have to chunk money that I don't have into another one, just yet! Since he's not using it all that much.. I am sooo thankful! The one I borrowed is worth about 500 smacks... definitely good for smaller venues <3.

Add to that the $25 extra dollars that I have in my checking account.. God only knows why and how I have it, but it's going to help me last until payday!!!

Then there was the call to the credit card company- I charged some clothes (ALL on sale!!!) for my twice in a lifetime pilgrimage to get new underthings and all that girly stuff... : ) some things just are NOT supposed to be hand me downs.. lol.. with payment due date that came and went on Friday, and me with no extra cash to be found, I ended up late and the late fee is hefty and more than the minimum payment due. I called and asked for more time... *BUZZ* wrong answer... : P

So... I called today to ask about the hardship program. I didn't qualify for that but they DID waive the late fee if I pay it off in the next two weeks.. . YAAAAY!!!!

So there have been some wonderful answers to prayer even since last night.. I can't wait to see what else He has up His sleeve! I want to challenge you to believe for some amazing things, too!


*If you want to know more about how to invite Jesus into YOUR life, please drop me a note! - God bless!

thanks to wallpaperez for the pic!









Tuesday, September 21, 2010

View from the Three Trees

Here is a picture taken from my parking spot. As for why I call it "Three trees" it is anyone's guess- :p ... it does come in handy in the dark when you can't see the numbers on the parking spaces : )

It helps having some sort of compass. I navigate for a living. Kind of ironic considering my appalling lack of a sense of direction.

But I DO have some wonderful navigational tools. First of all, I want to give kudos to Garmin, I am thankful, eternally, for my navigator- I use the male Australian, Lee. He is, at times, most irritatingly repetitious... the mute button is a godsend. : )

There are times when a map just doesn't cut it. When you are trying to find your pick up or drop off location, and there is a mess of construction, the GPS is a solid tool to help you get around. Especially when you have to do it on the "fly" - keyword fly in my case : D ...With my bad vision, I can't use the maps anymore.

Another great tool is my iphone. That in itself is a gem. The Google Maps application is wonderful - you can actually SEE the street that you program into it. I can't tell you how handy THAT one is!

I get weather updates when I need them. At your fingertips is a whole litany of information. If only the traffic and construction updates were as accurate.. lol.. but on a side and hugely long awaited note (D#) lol, the new Route 72 is due to open up on MONDAY!! Finally!! Thank You, Lord!!!! I am going to have a party! The delays and problems and utterly endless SNARLS of traffic are soon to come to a SCREECHING HALT!! : P

I do have one more navigational tool that I cannot live without... that would be God's Word... It is a compass for life, and keeps me from stumbling around in the dark, lost with no flashLight.. : ) and when you tend to be as distractable as I, you need something solid!

When I keep my focus grounded on that, I can get where I need to get without running around the mountain forty times... longer... than... needed... : D

It can get ugly, lonely, and pretty dark out there.

So, get yourself a good Navigation system! <3






Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Peace, be still!

Hello! It's been a long time since I have laid pen-er, keyboard, to paper, or screen, as it were. I have had so much floating around upstairs, I may need galoshes : }

One thing that I have been almost painfully aware of lately is my desperate need for rest. Plain and simple. You can dress it up in a myriad of ways... most of them don't fit.

I mean, really, who has time for that these days? We have cars that go from 0-60 almost instantaneously. We have microwaves. Drive through lines. Multi-tasking. Debt that causes us to have to work multiple jobs on little to no sleep. Kids that "need"/want everything that meets their eyes. and ears. : D. An economy with about as much security as a two thousand year old footbridge in a third world country.

How can we rest? If we don't "fix it", who will? With the crime rate through the roof, how can we trust anyone? TV show after tv show paints a morbid look at humanity at large. We don't know our neighbors, and we just keep to our own little world?

With so much angst among us, how in the world can we possibly find peace and rest?

It was about ten years ago. I could time-stack in multiples... lol.. I was in the bathtub ( I know, TMI.. just picture me clothed, it's much safer that way.. even I picture me clothed.. lol) anyway- yet I digress, of course... being still that long enough for a bath was unheard of, so I brought things into the bath with me to do.

It was about that time that the Lord started to gently PROD me to please slow down and rest. Nothing short of a lasso and electric fencing could get me to stop moving. I laughed out loud at my friend's daughter, Anneliese this weekend. She has two speeds, whirlwind and off. You can't even see her move. really... well, she IS almost three. and that would be me, also.

We even TALK fast up here. As if that helps our time-stacking routines. You only have to stop and repeat yourself over and over the those that can't hear you to begin with... *chuckle*

So slooooooooowly, but surely, and ever sooo painfully, I began to slow down- albeit grudgingly... getting older helped considerably. I began to actually notice things as I drove by, the neighbors even stopped complaining about the sonic boom that seemed accompany my car.

I moved south and that absolutely slowed me down. We are maniacs up here on the road, can I say that? When I get beeped at for not being a mile up the road AS the light is CHANGING, there is a problem... : (

I began to notice people's features, and listen.. really listen. We have two ears and ONE mouth... hmmm. interesting phenomenon... lol..

As I started to learn to literally breathe more slowly - no, that is NOT counting the wheezing and panting from climbing the stairs : - P... as I slowed, I saw that I could feel peace more and more. Of course learning not to give into the anxiety and fear is a big one, too..

We have indigestion because we EAT too fast... and we.. er, I am overweight because I/we eat sooo fast that the full button doesn't even have a chance to engage... : )

I know, I am preaching to me, too..

So here is what I am proposing...

Start slowly.... take a night and turn your phone off... they can live without you for a little while, and unless you have a pregnant or very sick family member or friend, it can wait.. : ) then make yourself turn off the computer for a while..

Get into the bath with a good book.. I know a really Good Book... : ) feeds your soul, too... : ) anyway... dim the lights a bit, and bring some chamomile tea with you. Peppermint helps with the digestion, btw...

Take a few deep breaths.. Practice it on an regular basis.. breathing is key to living... (I see the eyes rolling) Pray... Ask Him to help you. and check this out - it's in there.. and it works..

“I am leaving you with a gift—peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid."

And let me know how it went. I am working on it, myself... STILL...



*thanks for reading my extra loooong rant. and thanks to Ozarks Gardens for the pic.*





Thursday, August 5, 2010

Today and butterflies

Hello! Hope you are thriving today

I am thinking again. Pondering. I have been formulating this blog for a while, but I think I am ready to try and make some sense of it.

Fear. It's something I have been personally battling for a long time... not just the "OHMYGOSHNOMORESCARYMOVIES" kind of fear, but the little things. subtle stuff.

Not to get on a wheel-o-regret, but there are a lot of things that I could have done, said or savored, but didn't because of fear.

I know what God says about fear - basically in a nutshell, "Don't - you don't need to." That is pretty amazing... pretty comforting... except for when you are toe to toe with it.

I am learning, however llllllooooooooonnnnnnnggggggg the process, that I will win, and fear will not. It's just a matter of walking it out.

Of learning to say "No, I am not agreeing with this crap, I don't have to cuddle it, embrace it, and make it part of me." Of plowing through, even when I think I want to retreat. It can be pretty often for me. But on the bright side? It's gotten better than it was.

There are people to bless and love, opportunities to blossom, lessons to learn, and so much more- one moment at a time, I can overcome. By the grace of God - His love in a cross shaped heart, and my ever-unfolding story, I can move forward.

I can't do an awful lot about the stuff I have missed... but I can do something about what is in front of me- today- and choose to press through it.

ps... did I ever tell you about the butterfly? It has to endure a pretty tough process to go from a caterpillar to a butterfly. The process is what strengthens it, and if someone came along and tried to "help"- to try and bypass the process, the butterfly wouldn't have enough strength to fly. It would perish. Pushing through the cocoon makes it strong.

No wonder I love butterflies <3>




Sunday, July 18, 2010

Under Construction


If you live in Bristol, or have visited my end of our fair city these last few-make that several months, you have to have noticed the massive construction project underway. My friends and I have started taking bets as to which road will be closed with no warning on what day. It sure has been a headache! No matter which way you turn, you will find a delay.

I cannot tell you how much of a trial it has been. Never mind that the streets are soooo torn up, it feels like I am navigating the back roads of Maine on most of them. Delays, huge aggravation, and ridiculous road conditions.

Isn't that just like life? More delays and problems than you can count, it seems? One long annoyance... and in my neighborhood, noisy, at that.. : D

Unless you can see the big picture, you can miss any good that come out of all this aggravation.

Let me digress for one moment.. Well, I will, anyway, because it's my blog, and I can't hear your silent pleas for mercy... : P

A month or so back, when I was really agitated one morning- I had followed a car that had surely lost it's gas pedal, it had to be wired by inertia... ugh.. anyway, at the pinnacle of frustration, I opened the window and hollered at the policeman directing traffic. "So, any idea when this mess might be finished?" He chuckled and responded, " Thanksgiving??? Christmas???"

I hulked away in stony silence.

As I pondered his answer, I began to think about the construction that the Lord does on our character. It can seem awfully inconvenient and painful, at times. I wonder at how it can be such a long and arduous project. Especially on HIS end.. : P

But as we are fashioned with love, we become more and more lovely in the process... I want to look like my Papa.

Have a great week!






Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Thirsty?


It was a great weekend, lots of fun, fellowship, and oh yeah, heat... the kind of heat that leaves you breathless. You can see the sizzle rays in the air.

As I was driving from Point A to Point B yesterday - (and YES! I have re-read my last blog!,lol) I realized how thirsty I was... Not just dry in the mouth but parched... utterly. Not a good choice in the nearly oppressive heat.

All I could think of as I coursed along with the AC on "Arctic Chill," was how I COULDN'T WAIT for water. Cold, refreshing water. I peeled into the Walgreen's parking lot like someone on I- 84-aka Nascar, lol. yet, I digress. : D

So I strode into the store with one single purpose; I didn't see anything in my path, just the pearly gates of the cooler- (insert angelic choir, here)

After standing in line almost patiently; waiting for what seemed interminably- for the elderly woman to count her million pennies. I was out the door. I tore open that bottle and laid into that thing like I had been in the desert for a month or more.

Gulping like a newborn, I emptied the bottle in an instant. The cool tingle worked it's way through me, and I strode off to the air conditioned car.

Funny though, as much as I needed that water, and my body was craving it, isn't our inner man the same way? Don't we need that Spiritual Drink just as much?

Cranky tellers, miserable sales clerks, delays, long unmoving lines, disappointments, hurts, pain? There are soooo many things that can drain us dry. Hurting people... How fast the tank can empty!

If you know where to find that drink - it's more refreshing than the ice water. There was a woman a long time ago that asked Jesus about that same drink. The one that refreshes your soul... Here was His answer...

"If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water."

All you have to do is ask... <3

Friday, July 2, 2010


Hey there! It's that glorious day, once again! That much anticipated event that circles the calendar in a happy dance! Yup, it's FRIDAY!!!!

Isn't it interesting that we wait and groan for the weekend... all week the countdown plunges us closer to the beloved two day bask-o-refreshing... or does it?

Last weekend, I had so much stuffed into my weekend, it felt like an erupting girdle. A cattle prod couldn't have crammed more things to do into my weekend.

Time stacking. In triplicate. That veritable five o'clock whistle couldn't blow fast enough. Like a runner with a baton, I was out of the starting gates blowing steam and leaving skid marks.

Come Monday, The hamster wheel struck again, claiming another hapless victim.

Visions of a deep calm sea invaded the mind. Well, after all, things will calm down .... right after....... and so on and so forth... you get the picture...

sigh...

But one thing about wheels, they eventually come around again-and when it did, I made a choice... No more victim!!!

I am a victor! <3>

Come on in!.............. the water's FINE!

Monday, June 14, 2010

Playing for an audience of One .... and....


So...Happy Monday! This weekend was great! I played Friday night, Sat evening, Sunday AM three times! It was a pleasure- my leader at New Life, Jean Sandoval, is a really engaging leader.. it's been a thrill to have the interaction.. and I LOVE that... I love to get lost in the presence of God - there aren't enough words to describe that one.. : D .. but on a human level, that is one of the things that I miss the most about playing in church... the joy of playing!!! not just about sounding good, although, it crushes my flesh and tests me painfully when I sound bad... ahhhhhhh... but the interaction when we play.. it's precious to me..

I am binding with the team, and for me, the relational stuff is as important as leading people into worship. The interplay between us is as much fun as it can be. We listen to each other.. really listen. The quandry? How can we play skillfully without keeping people so captivated by skill that they forget the Lord? How can we entice those watching to GO DEEPER? Short of playing behind a black curtain, I haven't a clue. My job is to seek after God with my whole heart, show up with the right attitude, and let my Papa set the agenda... <3>