It's been a year since I have really had anything to say. (well, at least here)
I have been in a holding pattern of sorts, which may or may not be a good thing.
Have you ever contended for something? Stood your ground, fought the good fight, kept your eyes on the prize and all that? All the while, you watch your phone, emails, and mailbox for answers?
Digging your heels in, you hold your breath in anticipation, sure that the answer is just around the corner?
As time resolutely cranks past, the answer is too glaringly evident. It's a "NO." Whether it's sonorous or a whisper, it's still the same.
Disappointment sets in the cracks of your heart, as you struggle to make sense of it.
It is at that very moment that I have a choice to make.
I can become bItter, or I can become bEtter..
One little letter, so many facets.
God tells me over and over that I need to trust Him. Especially when things don't make sense. When the bills are in collections, and I lose my job. When the doctor comes in with a terminal diagnosis. When the car is totaled. When I am betrayed. When "he" breaks my heart.
Trust in Someone I can't even see?
If I choose to look at this problem as a drop in the bucket of eternity, it looses the paralyzing grip on my heart.
I love the Psalms, they always speak to my heart.
Ps. 37:23 says "the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way."
Ps. 62:8 "trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us."
Isaiah 26:3 "You will keep in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in You."
Be encouraged, for those that are His, there is GOOD to come out of it, somehow. it might not start there, but it will get there.
"and we know that in all things God works for the good for those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28
Have a GREAT day, and keep on keepin' on!